ONLY FEW DAYS

Hi guyzz!

It's been, 17 days since I last posted something lame, so here I am now.
My birthday is in two days, Yaay! Not really. Anyway I am getting a camera so, I can tell you already that I will post daily. I swear to god. I was waiting for this 2 years and I still can't believe, ajgfkjhigjkj.


Next weekend I will be there with new post!

see ya

NEW BLOG, SOON

Hi guys!

I am so sorry for not posting for like a month or two months? I don't really know actually. But with my birthday, 24th of February I will post daily, I hope so.

My biggest wish is coming true, because I am getting a Nikon d5200 or Nikon d5300.

I still can't belive.

I mean, I want this camera for about two years now and asdfhjkl.

I love taking photos. I love taking clear photos. And I can't wait to spend my all day just taking pcitures.

My blog is going to be a masterpiece, believe me :D

So, yeah. At the moment I am the happiest person in the world, and I put my life together in on piece. 

I am thinking about youtube channel, but I dont know. Blog is enough for now.

See you guys in 22 days xx

Who am I

Hi bloggers!

I am sorry for not posting about a week? Everything was so frustrated and I don't know what is happening with me, sometimes I am so happy that I can do everything and then I can cry and never be ok again.

I have really strange dreams tonight. Teachers found mv blog and they were all so worry and stuff. And I am afraid, what if this really happens. What Will I do?

I was thinking, that I deleted everything and just deal with myself.
And then, Well I don't know what I am supposed to do.
It's just, so many things are happening right now and I don't know what I want I just don't, I don't know, I really don't.

Ugh, anyway, hope you all have a great christmas and see u soon.
bye cutiepies xx

From Anxiety too big plans and HAPPINESS

These days are back.


It was about 8 pm and we were drinking tea and eating biscuits.
I don't know how many I ate but I wasn't feeling well. It was too much for me.


I eat too much now. Everyday, too damn much. I am afraid to check my weight.
I am not fat. And I am not skinny. And either I am not happy with myself. I go to gym twice a week. But now I can't. I must wait till New year. I mean I want to be healthy and I want to lose weight, like 10 kilograms would be perfect. And I Will do that, because I can. I don't eat much sweets, I guess. I tried without them and I can do it, but when I don't feel like it, I just eat idk piece of chocolate. And then I feel really bad. And yeah. This is happening. And I think: You will not eat tomorrow much.
Tomorrow everythin will be different. I will make a plan. And I gonna write about that on my blog.
And I will tell you everything.


1. No sweets!
2. Whatch what I eat and how much!
3. Be proud of myself!
4. Check weight every day!
5. Be healthy!
6. Study!
7. Spend 3 hours away from computer!
8. Be happy and do things I love!
9. Write everything and put this on internet!
10.


Why I decided to do that:
I wanna wear skate skirts and stuff in summer and I wanna be happy with my body, I wanna be confident with myself. I wanna go out and show people what I do, how hard I worked, etc.


I know that I can wear skirts now. Everbody can wear what they want no matter what!
YES! they can. But they must be confident in their own body! And I am not, And I gonna work on this, With every single day I gonna be better and stronger!


And I gonna wear everything what I can't wear before. And I will be so damn proud of myself. And everbody gonna watch me. And all this people will just stare at me like I am made of gold.


I will post pictures there, when I gonna be happy with myself. And we all gonna be happy.


I am so excited right now and it hurts some how that I am alone in this. But I can do this. Yes, I can!


I just can't wait for results!


See you tomorrow cutiepies, night xx

No limit

Hello bloggers, I saw this on tumblr and yes.

 

 

1.Kissed a girl? NO

2.Kissed a boy? NO

3.Had sex in public? NO

4.What’s your religion? Christian

5.What does your URL mean? PURE HEROIN?

6.Reason you joined tumblr? IMAGINES

7.Do you have any nicknames? YES

8.Do you like bubble bath? YES

9.Kissed in the rain? No

10.Dyed your hair? YES

11.Soup or salad? SALAD

12.Vegetable or meat? VEGEATABLE

13.Go out drinking? NO

14.Smoke cigarettes? YES

15.Smoke weed? NO

16.Do any hard drugs? NO

17.Have you had sex today? NO

18.Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? YES

19.The relationship between you and the person you last texted? IDK

20.Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? NO

21.Skipped doing homework to play a video game? YES, ALLTHE TIME

22.Tried to commit suicide? YES

23.The last time you felt broken? NOW 

24.Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt? YES

25.Do you have a Boyfriend/Girlfriend? NOBODY

26.Do you have Long hair OR short hair? SHORT

27.First thing you notice to a guy/girl? STYLE AND EYES

28.Do you sing in the shower? YES

29.Do you dance in the car? YES

30.Where were you yesterday? AT HOME

31.Ever used a bow and arrow? YES

32.Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? TODAY

33.Do you think musicals are cheesy? NOT AT ALL

34.Is Christmas stressful? YES

35.Favorite type of fruit pie? I DONT EAT PIE.

36.Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Dr vet

37.Do you believe in ghosts? YES

38.Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? N0

39.Take a vitamin daily? YES

40.Wear slippers? YES

41.Wear a bath robe? NO

42.What do you wear to bed? GUNS N ROSES T SHIRT AND SHORTS

43.Do you want to get married? NO

44.Can you curl your tongue? NO

 

 

See you tomorrow cutiepies xx

LITTLE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY

Hi bloggers!

Happy December doesn't exist, for me. Every single year.
At first, I never liked Christhmas, but this year I decided to be happy with my family and pretend that this is the best day of my life. But no. I can't even wait for Christmas, before something bad happened. Ugh. When I went home everything was ok. I go sleep and when I woke up, everything was wrong. I don't have enough energy for writing what happened, so, we will just, move on!



About two hours ago me and my mom, went shooping. We bought nothing actually, lol.
Anyway. When I was lost in shop. I saw something somethin and that make me happy. Like, I was so happy and I almost cry.
If you are watching youtubers and if you know who Alfie aka Pointlessblog is. He made ''photos'' no, I don't know exactly what they are.
Anyway I saw them. I think that they are not his. Or? But they are kinda the same. Well just one. The biggest.

Let me show you.

When I will move to London and when I will have my own flat I will buy them all. And I gonna be the happiest human alive.


Little things that make you happy.

Thats all for today and see you cutiepiesn tomorrow xx

Real friends?

Hi bloggers!
After two weeks I went back to school, just to get my notes. And I was thinking to myself: Anja nobody will give a damn about you; easy come, easy go.
Because nobody texted me when I was sick. Nobody really cares about me.
And then, school breake time. When my friends aka classmates saw me, they ALL started hugging me and they were all so nice to me. I was like wow. I did never expect that.
They were all aksing me: How am I, if I am coming back and stuff.
I still can't even believe. Well, I am not antisocial at all.
Its like I am talking to all people and they all actually like me, because I am always here for anyone and I am always so nice and lovely, no matter what, I always try to be happy around people. I don't like them thinking that, I am ''depressed'' (I am not!!).
Anyway
It was a big shock for me today.
And I was thinking:
Are they real friends?
No, they are not. This sounds a bit rude. But it's true. Isn't it? Even if they are nice to me. Nobody never ask me how I am or something like that.
And even worse.
I have one best friend. Well not anymore.. she is not best friend for me.
I was always special one, I had different taste of music, I wear different cloths, I think different, I am not like everyone else. And people were making fun of me. And I wasn't afraid of them. I was always proud of who I am. And I started to getting power. Everbody started to respect me, because I was different. And there was this friend. She started repeat after me. And she is now the same. She changed into me. She is my clone now. And I just can't take this anymore. Everything is so ugh. And I don't know what to do.
I told her everything I meant to. And she is jut so calm after all.
I don't know what to do anymore.

This is all for today cutiepies, see ya all tomorrow xx